November 10th, 2014

I have a confession to make about this blog. Ever since I switched from writing a personal blog to just keeping this one blog, I’ve had no desire to write. I think a good part of this is because I’ve been trying to stifle part of myself and be all professional-like. This has its place, for sure, but it doesn’t exactly foster creativity for writing for me.

And I think part of this is because I’ve been pressuring myself to remain upbeat and positive whenever I do post. After all, there are plenty of negative posts out there – I should set myself apart by being positive, right?

Wrong. Because here’s the truth – I’m not an optimist. I’m not a glass-half-full person. You will never find me spouting off rainbows and unicorns about anything. And the fact that I’ve been pushing myself to pretend to be not only means I’m inauthentic, it means I’m boring. (Note: Not saying positive people are boring – I’m saying when try to be positive, am boring). But when I started thinking about this – and believe me, I’ve done a lot of thinking about this lately – I realized that I’m not a pessimist, either. I don’t look for the bad in everything, consider the glass half empty, or talk gloom and doom all the time.

What I am, is a realimist (get it? Not a pessimist or an optimist, a realimist. Yes, I know it’s a ridiculous made-up word. I also happen to like it). I like to look at both sides of things and present what I feel is the fairest assessment of whatever the situation is. And sometimes that’s pretty awesome – but other times, it’s not.

I recognize that not everyone appreciates my brand of realimism, that they prefer people to be positive the majority of the time or at least present a positive front online. But what I also recognize is that when I’m doing that, not only am I not funny or witty or snarky or full-on Kristen, I’m just plain unhappy.

When I launched this site, I promised it would be a new site, but the same old me. So far, that hasn’t been entirely true. I’m making it true now. I hope you can come to expect more blogging here. I also hope you can come to expect more full-on Kristen – you know, the snarky, know-it-all, passionate, tech-and-student-affairsy blogger you either love or don’t. At least now you’ve been given fair warning.